Apartment Poetry Quarterly

10A              10B              10C              10D              10E              10F

 

10E Nathaniel Rosenthalis

 

UPTALK


1

                The old station

I’m in constant
            reference to

has tracks
            no flash along

can change. It
            tells me: no,

your eyes
            aren’t all, in that

mirrory crew
            at work on the corners.

I looked. They were
            still at it, as if

like-mindedness
            had put them up

just so they’d
            drop their arms.

2

               I was all for

the one driver
            whose green truck

gleamed,
            standoffishness

like the traffic’s
            that I hurried for

the hum
            I felt in me.

Rather:
            I couldn’t unfeel

the qualm of
            his horseshoe earrings,

silver high heels
            he carried in one hand.

It’s difficult
            to be invisible

3

                 when you can’t

disappear.
            My problem was

I could, almost
            on cue. An arch

fades to travelers.
            I only host

a squat man,
            his pink hotel.

My words:
            in and out of

beknightedness
            as well, although

I don’t see dust
            whipping the braids

of that early
            a.m. woman

4

                 whose hairdo

I recognize
            dazzles as she goes:

With you, I’d love
            to level, however…

When she vanished
            I came back to

my mouth:
            yes, yes, yes

returned a redness
            to my self-same shirt.

I take it off
            to put it on.

Or didn’t I go
            beyond that now

to the after-
            thought

5

                 I know air is

to people
            who don’t sing.

I understudied
            them. I flipped

some switch
            to sigh just past

the him.
            He reached.

Shutting some
            window

changed his face
            into a glare

I thought had
            only one move:

subsiding,
            backwards,

 

6

                into me.

I’m sounding
            the same. Whatever

has recourse
            to a brick wall

does, in the
            interest of true

touchability,
            fall back to that.

This thuds.
            I can’t mishear,

take too long  
            to have at, or

don’t I tend
            to. That sun

crosses me now,
            here until done.








IT'S NOT ABOUT THE THROAT


1

                Eye to eye

he offered. Forward air doesn’t open
            just

any window. A bed’s not evidence.
            I don’t

say this man’s mine and
            in time, me

without coming too close to
            an open door

that exaggerates. Wanting takes
            more than what’ll fly:

I whined at his touch, which
            did increase the ante

of a place
            he asked to go to, or toward.

2

                 To say wind

works my lips. So warm day
            does, in

my extent of waiting for that
            wind.

Whatever scatters me.
            I can watch

some video play my mind
            for what it’d

look like: my face
            into softer down.

Where is there to
            want it? How about now?

It’s not like, he said,
            this is what the end is for.

 

3
                I came to

the right morning for no
            other list:

hair, sweat, a grip, some
            lash of

a disclosure. I talk more than
            is

perhaps necessary.
            My head and throat

vanish. The sun
            is repetition

of the sun as it would vanish.
            I go into a slump

on the bed in the latent
            intent of a do-over.

 

4
                He can go

all over.
            He’s got manners.

He’s reserved in a
            low-key way.

Engaging. Extremely.
            He is

ambitious, but veiled about
            it.

He bursts out laughing at
            the ridiculous,

 

acknowledging how
            divided he is from

himself. Facing a self
            makes invisibility.

 

5

                I could

say no, but
            my body’s lacking

becomes its bottom-most step. I
            hear a warning:

a passing truck picks up some can at
            the same time

the next day passes without
            a sound,

and the next. Don’t forget that
            wind

is upside down almost the mind.
            Night comes in with no

other body: longer,
            cool, anonymous, discrete.

6

                I look down:

zooming out is a mistake
            because it shifts focus

from my hand.
            Which is now a fist.

Now not. The mechanism of
            distribution

will be taken care of by the sky.
            It’s less blue

and more people, by
            my eyes:

the previous clouds again.
            He

lays on his back in the pack. I
            look on, off, all afternoon.